That's all I really have to say.
Well, and I hate being broke and bored.

I can't say that I care too much.
But it hasn't been a horrible year...I got a job, got my license, made some great new friends, got my nose pierced, FINALLY got my damn braces off, and...wrote some songs?  I dunno.  It was ok.
However, the one thing that's most on my mind is how my "best friend" got mad at me for not going to her party tonight.
I would understand why she was upset about it if I hadn't downright told her it was because (on christmas) my mom had to go to the hospital.  She had some serious pain in her foot/ankle that she originally thought was a blood clot because of the pain but turned out to be something else that I'm not sure of (it was even hurting her leg today) and I thought it would be best that I stayed home in case she needed me.  I told my friend on christmas, when it happened, to tell her I couldn't make it and she acted like a good friend would, she understood, asked if I needed her to do anything so on and so on...
Cut to two days later when she's texting me when her whole attitude changes.
She asked me if I was sure I couldn't come and I said yes. 
She asked me "even for just a couple nights?" or overnight whatever. 
I said yes and that I'd already cancelled my time off requests at work anyhow. 
Then she told me it if I was working I wouldn't be with my mom anyway so it didn't make sense. 
I told her it did make sense becuse I'd only be gone for a couple of hours and I really need the money and I owe my mom and step dad a lot of money as it is.
Then she said something like "Whatever dude, I just think it's really mean that you did that to me because you told me a long time ago that you'd be there.  But whatever ttyl I'm out to lunch"  and that's actually almost exaclty what the text said.
I was very confused.
How am I THE MEAN ONE IN THIS SITUATION??
I'm staying home with my mom to help her because she's in pain, which I thought my friend understood...but I'm mean.  I was confused and mad after getting that text. 
So I replied "Well, sorry.  Shit happens, they make bumper stickers about it.  Enjoy your lunch."  And she hasn't talked to me since.

But if that's the kind of friend she really is, which isn't what I've seen over the past 4-5 years, I'm not so sure she's my kind of friend.  If someone's family needs them, a good friend would understand instead of just pretending to understand then sending catty fucking text messages about "how mean I am".

So this year, I'm gonna make sure to keep my good friends close.  I know I have the best friends out there.  I used to think she was a good friend, but this is the third time she's gotten mad/been mean to me over stupid things and I'm deciding now that I'm not going to put up with people's bullshit when they're not worth it.

I'm not saying we'll never make up, but if she's not gonna let it go, I'm not gonna try.  And I KNOW I don't owe her an appology.


But this is the last thing I'm gonna say about that particular instance.  and...happy new year?
Sure!  Why the hell not.

I just want to say...
that given the chance...
I would totally do this guy.